Early Thanksgiving
Wherein Our
Heroine Takes Stock.
I am going to focus on the positive
today. It's about time. If I looked back over my daily entries, there's
probably a perfect sine wave of gentle, peaceful musings on geraniums and
vocabulary, descending slightly through irritation at deer and the process of
job-hunting, plunging into a wail of outrage over obliviousness and the vagaries
of the mass media, then ascending slightly into bemused wonderment at auctorial
insanity and only slightly sarcastic lectures about voting, finally ending up at
gentle, peaceful musings on pets and the upcoming movie
"Serenity."
And yet, you
politely bear with me, Dear Reader. Thank you for
that.
One of the tapes I use
to support me in my Yoga practice ends by asking you to think of something you
are grateful for. Usually, I am simply grateful for my Yoga practice. The
balance between focus and general awareness, effort and relaxation seems to take
everything else that gets to me and lighten it up a bit. It is still there,
mind you, it just doesn't bother me the way it does before I practice.
But there are a couple of
other things I am particularly grateful for at the moment (and this is not an
exhaustive list). My husband - patient man that he is - has borne through this
period of job-hunting and the intense anxiety that led up to it. He is known
for his ability to worry and fret, yet he has not expressed any anxiety about
this process (except when he worries that I am getting too stressed out). He
has been undeniably and unwaveringly supportive through ups, downs, hard
decisions, and setbacks. My friends, who are doing huge things like getting
engaged, having children, and buying houses - I am grateful for their examples
of life moving forward, even as I feel mine is temporarily stagnant. I am even
grateful for the opportunity to help Maria and Pat (new home-owners) move - come
Halloween weekend, I'll be lifting with my legs (not my back) and looking
forward to steaks and beer as my just
reward.
In other words, to try
to hammer some perspective into my own head: the current lack of employment is
not all. Stop and smell the autumn
leaves.
What are
you
grateful for today?
Posted: Friday - October 01, 2004 at 08:21 AM
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